I spend a lot of time on yoga. It is not necessarily because I want to get better at it; it is more because I want to negate the notion of “better” and immerse myself in the present moment as much as I can. I used to spend a lot (maybe all) of my time thinking about the future, thinking “I’ll be happy when this happens” or “I’ll be happy when I become this”. The irony is that none of those things would come without immersion in the present.
Yoga teaches, and has taught me, to notice the present instead of planning for better things in the future (planning for the future is not a negative thing; it was just something I needed to minimize in my own life).
Notice your breathing, notice what is worrying you; don’t necessarily try to change it, just be aware of it.
For example, yoga has a list of what you would call “behavioral guidelines”: the yamas and niyamas. I’ve only just begun to study them, but the impression I’ve gotten is that instead of preaching “rights” and condemning “wrongs”, it teaches you to notice and be aware of your thoughts, actions, and feelings. It has been my experience that this brings about positive change in a natural, rather than forced, way, and that these changes are different for every individual.
I became an almost vegan.
I started listening to my body.
I stopped watching TV every day; my mind and my body wanted something different.
I stopped hating (I still dislike).
I learned to recognize the difference between what I can change and what I cannot, and to take action in the case of the former and learn acceptance in the case of the latter.
I’m slowly learning the true meaning of “attachment leads to suffering”, and that it does not mean stop loving, but stop needing to possess what you love.
Yoga teaches you to teach yourself.
I feel it in the core of my being, an ocean rising in me, rushing through me. I look inside and see beaming light in my heart.
Behavioral economics teaches that there are two selves: the experiencing self and the remembering self. The experiencing self exists in the present ("living in the moment", with a moment defined as a span of about 3 seconds). The remembering self is made up of memories, including plans for future memories.
The two selves define well-being very differently. The experiencing self asks the question: am I happy right now? The remembering self asks: am I satisfied with my life?
Both have a place; both are important. I used to be unhappy in both aspects because I focused entirely on the satisfaction of the remembering self. I made no effort to fill each moment with joy. Once I did, the gap began to close. I became full and I began to expand. Abundant and vast, content and hungry for more.
Happy friday, beautiful beings.
xoxo
Juliana
